Missing Grandma Dolly.....

I have not been able to post in so long. Everything has been too busy :/ After fighting off pneumonia and then finding out she had more cancer, Grandma Dolly, spent her last weeks at home with all of her family and passed away on March 24th. We are so thankful to have had a little more time with her but now she is gone. And it is just weird. I expect to see her when we go to their house, I keep saying "Grandma and Grandpa's house", and we just had to celebrate our first holiday without her here. Easter was as usual but Grandma wasn't there to hug my kids, to tease back and forth with my dad or to eat up the sweets. She also wasn't sitting next to Grandpa at the fundraiser the night before. The worst part by far is having to see Grandpa without her. He loved her so much! They met at a dance and went on their first date on Valentine's Day. A month later he proposed to her and 5 months later they were married. This summer would have been their 65th wedding anniversary. I think about how he always took care of her, how he held her hand as she was dying, and how he told me "I just want Momma back" after she passed away. He is heartbroken and missing his love, and that is just so hard to watch. My mom, her sisters, and brother are all having a hard time as well. I try to tell everyone that I know she is in Heaven, and that she is so happy watching over her beautiful family. It comforts me to know this and I have been able to contain my own sadness over missing Grandma. But, it is near impossible for me to choke back my tears when I watch Grandpa looking at her picture, touching something of hers, or talking about great memories he has. Were they perfect? Of course not. They occasionally fought like any other couple, Grandma would nag him, they have been through great highs and deep lows, seen so much in their life together but nothing ever changed how much they loved each other. They were in love, and still are. I cry as I think of this but feel Grandma around me, giving me a little squeeze and telling me it will be okay. Grandma I love you, you are an amazing woman <3 I know you are surrounding us and watching over us but I sure wish I could give you another hug.....